march of folly

Have you ever observed your own mind, it always roaming around in future and past and in present we are acting like zombies. i.e most of the things get done without knowing that you are doing it, like you drive car without knowing the street or observing anything and suddenly after half an hour you reach the destination.....viola..... i tried vipasana the other day.....it looks stupid to just look at breath but i notice that 10 mins i did it was eternity and after that i really used 1 hour productivly. i have always know the right thing that should be done but never did it.....like i always knew that i should study during my exams but never did, i know that i should apply for job.....but i am not applying...i know what exactly should be done, but i don't do it. May be vipasana can help me but may be it's just a passing fad.

february 2010 was horrible month for me in melbourne, i shifted from my forest hill house and moved with this hyderabadi guy callled Ravi and you know you assume that south indians are intellectual and hardworking type of people, but this guy was completely opposite was huge drunkard and smoker and with in 2 days i realised that i had to move out of the house. anyways i was too lazy to look around for house and lived like a pig for a month and while returning form job in the last week of feb on friday i see one of his aussie white friend lying on the nature strip with two lady cop on top of him and i see Ravi sitting outside the apartment drunk and eating with his both hands like 3rd grade ramsay horror movie and i realised its time to change the house and with in 2 days i found this house in doncaster andm oved in with this aussie guy. thoug rent is around 730 aud which is quiete high but living here for 1 month has been peaceful and quiete uneventful......i really love uneventful life as such.

when you have peace you can think of war...hahhaha....on 18th march i bought camera and tripod stand and hopefully i will start making some nice viseos and spread the enlightment around ......i have millins of ideas it just needs proper implementation.


I am a good strategist but poor implementer, i just need to improve the implementation part and nothing can stop me, easier said then done......thinking about it for last 1 year i find idiots have been more successful then me.....but somehow even then i am very contented and peaceful person.