Monday, August 23, 2010
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Bhopal Gas
Bhopal gas verdict raises very critical question of us as an Indian citizen; can we really trust the state that it can deliver time bound justice to its citizen. Why is it that after 60 years of independence we are still poor country, look at South Korea, Singapore, Malaysia, Taiwan; they were poorer than India in 1950's and now they are developed countries and we in India have still to get along with Chalta hai attitude of our Police, Judiciary. Why is it that as a citizen we fail to force our government to actually govern. Why can't we change the system of governance.....
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Tata Nano, Singur and Left wing
A car project which would have revolutinised the industrial scene in West Bengal, was so vehmently opposed that it had to shift its whole production plant from to industrial friendly state of Gujarat. So question arises
a) why was there massive support against Tata Nano
b) Why were people not able to see the massive economic and employment opportunity from this project.
c) Why was media not able to gauge the people's opinion in Bengal.
a) why was there massive support against Tata Nano
b) Why were people not able to see the massive economic and employment opportunity from this project.
c) Why was media not able to gauge the people's opinion in Bengal.
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Thursday, April 15, 2010
Think !! ...... before you think...............
Thinking is just a tool, in whole repository of tools that we humans have.....
You use it judiciously and you achieve, you use it negatively, you ruin your life.
So think before you think.........
So the whole concept of ITTIAM i.e I think therefore i am, is wrong, the truth is, i am; therefore i think.......
There is always a discoonect between what we think and what we do....
Have you ever observed your thoughts; you are never in now.....when in now, you think of past or future.
But we live in now.
But somehow because of our thinking we do not enjoy now.
We make enemy out of now; right now you are living a life, and you are not enjoying it.
When in office you are at home, when at home, you are at beach and when at beach you think about meeting office deadlines..
You run, in thoughts, from office to home to beach.....defintely you will get exhausted by such running......
and thats a retarded way to think....
Now; use thought, in positive manner, it gives you sense or concept called future, where you can have an appointment with doctor or itieanary to catch plane.....
So thought is just like an axe, use it, to cut trees and not your legs....
Stop thinking and start living.....
You use it judiciously and you achieve, you use it negatively, you ruin your life.
So think before you think.........
So the whole concept of ITTIAM i.e I think therefore i am, is wrong, the truth is, i am; therefore i think.......
There is always a discoonect between what we think and what we do....
Have you ever observed your thoughts; you are never in now.....when in now, you think of past or future.
But we live in now.
But somehow because of our thinking we do not enjoy now.
We make enemy out of now; right now you are living a life, and you are not enjoying it.
When in office you are at home, when at home, you are at beach and when at beach you think about meeting office deadlines..
You run, in thoughts, from office to home to beach.....defintely you will get exhausted by such running......
and thats a retarded way to think....
Now; use thought, in positive manner, it gives you sense or concept called future, where you can have an appointment with doctor or itieanary to catch plane.....
So thought is just like an axe, use it, to cut trees and not your legs....
Stop thinking and start living.....
Friday, April 9, 2010
Dogs
Another weekend.....
Well on 17th April 2010 Mohit is marrying Jodie, and its only a week left and i haven't bought his wedding present and neither have i prepared the best man's speech......( me and my wretched plans....never gets implemented).....
If auntyji or Rohit comes to know i am the best man,their faith on whole humanity would be lifted, i was supposed to look after and keep a watch on Mohit, and look at me!!!!!.....i am arranging for his marriage......but what can i do.....
The laughing matter about all this affair is that auntyji wanted only a brahmin and no other brahmin other than Sanadhya brahmin, god has his own ways....Mohit is marrying true blood aussie....
This thursday i.e is 8th April was the most productive day of the week.....
1) I got my vic roads address updated
2) Killed few viruses on my computer.
3) Downgraded my 3 mobile plan.....( i don't think i need i phone.....why should i pay 54$ for it)
4) bought weeks grocery + petrol
5) Also worked till 5.....
This saturday and sunday, i think i should prepare list of all the indian shops and sort it suburb wise......it has been 4 months now since i am expecting this toy consignment......and i still don't see it anywhere,
I think i have got addicted to ebay......my cash is flying out pretty fast.......need to curb my enthusiasm.......
On top of it; this question, has bothered me for last whole week..... does life have any meaning; If i look back,it seems meanigless, you sleep, work, eat, and eventually die.......out of billions of people; who were born before me, or, who will be born after me, on this planet, we humans, remember barely 100 odd souls........or let me paraphrase....do you know the name of any person who won Noble Prize last year!!!!..... probably, most of the people, will not know; by name, even a single person......and i think i am important......
Well on 17th April 2010 Mohit is marrying Jodie, and its only a week left and i haven't bought his wedding present and neither have i prepared the best man's speech......( me and my wretched plans....never gets implemented).....
If auntyji or Rohit comes to know i am the best man,their faith on whole humanity would be lifted, i was supposed to look after and keep a watch on Mohit, and look at me!!!!!.....i am arranging for his marriage......but what can i do.....
The laughing matter about all this affair is that auntyji wanted only a brahmin and no other brahmin other than Sanadhya brahmin, god has his own ways....Mohit is marrying true blood aussie....
This thursday i.e is 8th April was the most productive day of the week.....
1) I got my vic roads address updated
2) Killed few viruses on my computer.
3) Downgraded my 3 mobile plan.....( i don't think i need i phone.....why should i pay 54$ for it)
4) bought weeks grocery + petrol
5) Also worked till 5.....
This saturday and sunday, i think i should prepare list of all the indian shops and sort it suburb wise......it has been 4 months now since i am expecting this toy consignment......and i still don't see it anywhere,
I think i have got addicted to ebay......my cash is flying out pretty fast.......need to curb my enthusiasm.......
On top of it; this question, has bothered me for last whole week..... does life have any meaning; If i look back,it seems meanigless, you sleep, work, eat, and eventually die.......out of billions of people; who were born before me, or, who will be born after me, on this planet, we humans, remember barely 100 odd souls........or let me paraphrase....do you know the name of any person who won Noble Prize last year!!!!..... probably, most of the people, will not know; by name, even a single person......and i think i am important......
Monday, April 5, 2010
Easter weekend
Things are moving pretty fast, Yogi is moving back to india from UK, thank god i never went to that wretched country, it would have been plain waste of time.
Like chinese philospher said " If you have not travelled the world, you have read only one page of 1000 page book".
Here after living in australia i have come to appreciate the universal human values which have nothing to with religion, culture or upbringing. By meeting people and getting to know them makes you understand that everyone is looking for good job, decent life, good food, security and liveable atmosphere. People as such are not racist, but just ignorant or have false sense of insecurity.
I have few Pakistani friends and as such they are fun to chat and go out and eat out with, but they have some crazy notions like; i was in my lunch break and this guy Sajad was happy that he had bought Honda civic car and was showing me around his car and we were discussing about cost of repairs and other misc. matters, i asked him how much are you paying for your insurance. He says nothing, because insurance is haram in Islam. But i asked him even if he meets with minor accident here in melbourne, the cost is going to be thousands of dollars, and he retorts that amitbhai, even if you cross the road you can die, there is no security in life as such.
I am amazed by such thinking, no wonder if well educated pakistanis have such view then country would sure go to dogs....
Anyways last 4 days of easter weekend has been uneventful, it was really beautiful to do nothing.....lol....but from tuesday i have to work till 5pm .....that makes me dread....
Like chinese philospher said " If you have not travelled the world, you have read only one page of 1000 page book".
Here after living in australia i have come to appreciate the universal human values which have nothing to with religion, culture or upbringing. By meeting people and getting to know them makes you understand that everyone is looking for good job, decent life, good food, security and liveable atmosphere. People as such are not racist, but just ignorant or have false sense of insecurity.
I have few Pakistani friends and as such they are fun to chat and go out and eat out with, but they have some crazy notions like; i was in my lunch break and this guy Sajad was happy that he had bought Honda civic car and was showing me around his car and we were discussing about cost of repairs and other misc. matters, i asked him how much are you paying for your insurance. He says nothing, because insurance is haram in Islam. But i asked him even if he meets with minor accident here in melbourne, the cost is going to be thousands of dollars, and he retorts that amitbhai, even if you cross the road you can die, there is no security in life as such.
I am amazed by such thinking, no wonder if well educated pakistanis have such view then country would sure go to dogs....
Anyways last 4 days of easter weekend has been uneventful, it was really beautiful to do nothing.....lol....but from tuesday i have to work till 5pm .....that makes me dread....
Friday, April 2, 2010
No Evil
I am facinated by vipasana, it sounds and seems so simple to just watch your own breadth, but when you are actually doing it then you realise even the minute is eternity. Thoughts in mind are so delusional, they either go in past or in future but never in present. I have seen, when i am in present i do not have any fear or worry or tension or anxiety, its only when i am day dreaming that i hop from remebering the embarassment of past mistakes or suddenly fearing for the future.
I know this, but still i do not implement it, like i have the knowledge but no wisdom. It has been the same for long time, when i was in school i knew i should study; but did i study? I knew i should have stood up against Kamal, but i did not. Most of the times i have taken easier path or i always lacked the courage to stand for what i beleived.
Like SAS has motto " Who dares wins", i know, but has it been implemented.....
Gita has very important lesson, ie not to be attached to fruits of your action......seems so simple, like vipasana, but its like nuclear bomb of spirutuality......if i can master that then nothing can stop me, just like nuclear bomb its difficult to make, but devastating to use... right sense of mind is required for it. Because if i look back at my own experience or see the egs in history of mankind then i observed that greates killers on this planet has been world leaders like Genghis Khan, Hitler, Churchill, Stalin, Japanese
emperor, and they arose because the normal people were not following their dharam, they were too much engrossed by what they can get out by collaborating with these dictators and other extreme to this has been the path followed by Buddha, Christ, Gandhi, Nelson Mandela....these people did not work for fame,wealth or recognistion it just that they followed what they beleived was right and every other thing felt into place.
Isn't this world fascinating place, it has been shaped by both the tyrants and saints. So i do not understand why does church always portrays god on the side of good, because god doesnt discriminate, it has created both the evil and good.
Essentially evil and good balance themselves out. If you look at law of nature, big fish eats small fish. from viewpoint of small fish its evil but from big fish point of view its good.......
But then at the end of the day i still don't know what should be done.......
I know this, but still i do not implement it, like i have the knowledge but no wisdom. It has been the same for long time, when i was in school i knew i should study; but did i study? I knew i should have stood up against Kamal, but i did not. Most of the times i have taken easier path or i always lacked the courage to stand for what i beleived.
Like SAS has motto " Who dares wins", i know, but has it been implemented.....
Gita has very important lesson, ie not to be attached to fruits of your action......seems so simple, like vipasana, but its like nuclear bomb of spirutuality......if i can master that then nothing can stop me, just like nuclear bomb its difficult to make, but devastating to use... right sense of mind is required for it. Because if i look back at my own experience or see the egs in history of mankind then i observed that greates killers on this planet has been world leaders like Genghis Khan, Hitler, Churchill, Stalin, Japanese
emperor, and they arose because the normal people were not following their dharam, they were too much engrossed by what they can get out by collaborating with these dictators and other extreme to this has been the path followed by Buddha, Christ, Gandhi, Nelson Mandela....these people did not work for fame,wealth or recognistion it just that they followed what they beleived was right and every other thing felt into place.
Isn't this world fascinating place, it has been shaped by both the tyrants and saints. So i do not understand why does church always portrays god on the side of good, because god doesnt discriminate, it has created both the evil and good.
Essentially evil and good balance themselves out. If you look at law of nature, big fish eats small fish. from viewpoint of small fish its evil but from big fish point of view its good.......
But then at the end of the day i still don't know what should be done.......
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Thats life
So what is life all about......
It seems that life is truly very simple but its me; who makes it complicated....like when i was in school i wanted to grow up and school sucked, now i have grown up i miss school, when i was in 4th std and used to see 6th class children bullying kg or 1 std kids i used to think how powerful they are; when i was in 6th i was afraid of KG and 1 std kids that they will start crying and teacher would slap me. Then went to college so thought lets get out of india, now here i am out of india, then i miss India. There would be million people out there who would be ready to replace there life with me, but till i have to crib.
So life i beleive would go on.....i think it has no purpose as such, we treasure what we don't have .....and never cherish what we have.
As some one has said in life it's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.
hahhaha now some song and dance......ershad...lol
I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.
It seems that life is truly very simple but its me; who makes it complicated....like when i was in school i wanted to grow up and school sucked, now i have grown up i miss school, when i was in 4th std and used to see 6th class children bullying kg or 1 std kids i used to think how powerful they are; when i was in 6th i was afraid of KG and 1 std kids that they will start crying and teacher would slap me. Then went to college so thought lets get out of india, now here i am out of india, then i miss India. There would be million people out there who would be ready to replace there life with me, but till i have to crib.
So life i beleive would go on.....i think it has no purpose as such, we treasure what we don't have .....and never cherish what we have.
As some one has said in life it's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.
hahhaha now some song and dance......ershad...lol
I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.
I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.
You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.
I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.
For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.
Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?
It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.
I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.
It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.
Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?
Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?
Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?
Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.
Melbourne grand prix
Sunday 28th March 2010
for 2 continious day i have been sitting on my arse doing nothing.....what a tragedy and what a waste of life..... like what swami nithyanand (bastard, wasted 1 gb of satsang) said i have the intelligence but not the intellect. Get carried away too much. I want to conquer the world but i am not able to have control over my own mind, seem like have compulsive behaviour disorder, means every now and then i go to google news.....fuck...it feels like i am more uodated then most editors of news papers. Today i devoted 5 hrs searching on all about marwari culture and all the comments, jokes people make on marwaris. what a waste of time.
Anyways good thing is that i have ordered video camera, tripod so that i can make certain good youtube videos....means youtube is crap without my own input.
Today i had chance of going to melbourne grand prix but as usual too lazy to drive car and go and watch pepole driving car.....what sort of idiotic sport is this that you watch people driving car,,,fucking retards.....
On facebook i have become a farmer......sometimes i feel i must be the biggest disappointment on this planet......who wants to be farmer and that too e- farmer....just killing time....
for 2 continious day i have been sitting on my arse doing nothing.....what a tragedy and what a waste of life..... like what swami nithyanand (bastard, wasted 1 gb of satsang) said i have the intelligence but not the intellect. Get carried away too much. I want to conquer the world but i am not able to have control over my own mind, seem like have compulsive behaviour disorder, means every now and then i go to google news.....fuck...it feels like i am more uodated then most editors of news papers. Today i devoted 5 hrs searching on all about marwari culture and all the comments, jokes people make on marwaris. what a waste of time.
Anyways good thing is that i have ordered video camera, tripod so that i can make certain good youtube videos....means youtube is crap without my own input.
Today i had chance of going to melbourne grand prix but as usual too lazy to drive car and go and watch pepole driving car.....what sort of idiotic sport is this that you watch people driving car,,,fucking retards.....
On facebook i have become a farmer......sometimes i feel i must be the biggest disappointment on this planet......who wants to be farmer and that too e- farmer....just killing time....
Saturday, March 27, 2010
decade of introspection
its 2010 so i thought why not list the achievements, disappointments and hope of last 1 decade, thought month and date may not be right but the year would perfectly be alright. so lets start with year 2000, i was doing CA in ahmedabad and undergoing article ship training, i had passed my CA foundation exam so along with college (i was in HA, though i got admission in HL)i was working as article clerk, working 6 days a week like full time job for RS 300 a month and from 11 to 7 pm. by the time i used to reach home did not feel like doing anything missied college days and did not even do bird watching.....(u know what i mean) but tis felt as if i was studying, but in reality not studying and on top of it i was very proud of the fact that i can pass any exam with only preparation of 1 day. so this article ship routine went on for 1 and half year and then CA inter exam came , without tution and without studying how could i expect to pass but still i managed to pass 3 subjects and failed in one. though i failed but still had this feeling if i had studied for 15 days i would have passed (still very proud of myself) some how i passed my CA inter exam after few attempts and viola in 2003 Pachauri gave me call that he had job for me in Dubai, i was happy, scared apprehensive and took the job in dubai and worked there for 8 months and while working i realised that dubai was not the place meant for me this sheikhs had some weird rules , they keep your passport and to change job you need your employers noc, and as we know all employers are assholes....no one is going to give you that. So i figured out that i had no future in Dubai and this country can only exploit me.......on top of it there was my manager Kamal Parikh, the biggest bastard on this planet, i have not forgotten him, some day i think i should enact zinda movie seen on him (inshallah...lol). I did not think much one fine monday morning i remeber vividly i entered my office at 9 am without much thought i typed my resignation letter and sent to raj somani at 9.20 am most of the staff was horrified and told me that i was stupid to leave the job where i could have grown to become the director of the company......but in hindsight that was one of the best decisions of my life.......fuck dubai......
Nov 2004 i landed back in India and on the same day my neighbour Satish's father died, it was sad day for me as uncle was very close to my heart though he was 80 yrs old.
Anyways i applied for UK visa and it was rejected 2 time i was unhappy and was saying to god why should this happen to me.....but now i know that it was the best thing to have happend, because then i wouldn't have come down to Australia.
Nov 2004 i landed back in India and on the same day my neighbour Satish's father died, it was sad day for me as uncle was very close to my heart though he was 80 yrs old.
Anyways i applied for UK visa and it was rejected 2 time i was unhappy and was saying to god why should this happen to me.....but now i know that it was the best thing to have happend, because then i wouldn't have come down to Australia.
march of folly
Have you ever observed your own mind, it always roaming around in future and past and in present we are acting like zombies. i.e most of the things get done without knowing that you are doing it, like you drive car without knowing the street or observing anything and suddenly after half an hour you reach the destination.....viola..... i tried vipasana the other day.....it looks stupid to just look at breath but i notice that 10 mins i did it was eternity and after that i really used 1 hour productivly. i have always know the right thing that should be done but never did it.....like i always knew that i should study during my exams but never did, i know that i should apply for job.....but i am not applying...i know what exactly should be done, but i don't do it. May be vipasana can help me but may be it's just a passing fad.
february 2010 was horrible month for me in melbourne, i shifted from my forest hill house and moved with this hyderabadi guy callled Ravi and you know you assume that south indians are intellectual and hardworking type of people, but this guy was completely opposite was huge drunkard and smoker and with in 2 days i realised that i had to move out of the house. anyways i was too lazy to look around for house and lived like a pig for a month and while returning form job in the last week of feb on friday i see one of his aussie white friend lying on the nature strip with two lady cop on top of him and i see Ravi sitting outside the apartment drunk and eating with his both hands like 3rd grade ramsay horror movie and i realised its time to change the house and with in 2 days i found this house in doncaster andm oved in with this aussie guy. thoug rent is around 730 aud which is quiete high but living here for 1 month has been peaceful and quiete uneventful......i really love uneventful life as such.
when you have peace you can think of war...hahhaha....on 18th march i bought camera and tripod stand and hopefully i will start making some nice viseos and spread the enlightment around ......i have millins of ideas it just needs proper implementation.
I am a good strategist but poor implementer, i just need to improve the implementation part and nothing can stop me, easier said then done......thinking about it for last 1 year i find idiots have been more successful then me.....but somehow even then i am very contented and peaceful person.
february 2010 was horrible month for me in melbourne, i shifted from my forest hill house and moved with this hyderabadi guy callled Ravi and you know you assume that south indians are intellectual and hardworking type of people, but this guy was completely opposite was huge drunkard and smoker and with in 2 days i realised that i had to move out of the house. anyways i was too lazy to look around for house and lived like a pig for a month and while returning form job in the last week of feb on friday i see one of his aussie white friend lying on the nature strip with two lady cop on top of him and i see Ravi sitting outside the apartment drunk and eating with his both hands like 3rd grade ramsay horror movie and i realised its time to change the house and with in 2 days i found this house in doncaster andm oved in with this aussie guy. thoug rent is around 730 aud which is quiete high but living here for 1 month has been peaceful and quiete uneventful......i really love uneventful life as such.
when you have peace you can think of war...hahhaha....on 18th march i bought camera and tripod stand and hopefully i will start making some nice viseos and spread the enlightment around ......i have millins of ideas it just needs proper implementation.
I am a good strategist but poor implementer, i just need to improve the implementation part and nothing can stop me, easier said then done......thinking about it for last 1 year i find idiots have been more successful then me.....but somehow even then i am very contented and peaceful person.
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